Is this MS related? This is a question I have been haunted by continually, especially in the last 2 weeks. For those of you have MS, know someone who has MS, or are living with an autoimmune disease yourself, I am sure you can relate to the panicky feelings that can arise from several days of unexplained symptoms.
I recently experienced this and I am so relieved it has since vanished. What a scary 2 weeks! I was unable to function at the level I had been before, only a week ago! What is happening? I had to lay on the floor while my daughter brushed her teeth and I was forced to surrender to a 3 year old’s bedtime. Housework didn’t get done. Homework didn’t get done. All without an understanding or explanation for my husband but especially myself.
I went to my scheduled annual MRI during this time, convinced they were going to tell me I had new, active lesions on my brain (something that I fear the most so far during this journey) and once again, I would be forever changed…..
Pretty dramatic, right? Every ounce of cool, calm and collected was gone for me during this time. This is not me and I needed answers – the good, the bad, and the ugly, I just needed to know.
Thankfully, all of my labs and even my MRI came back showing that there is nothing new – I am stable! It’s like I was holding my breath for the last week, and now I can breathe again! What I learned from this experience is that MS may show its face at different times and for no apparent reason. But I vow to keep getting up, dusting myself off and carrying on positively in this life, surrounded by the wonderful people, that I am so lucky to have!
A couple of quotes I came across that have really inspired me to continue to live each day to its fullest: “Worrying does not take away tomorrow’s troubles. It takes away today’s peace”, and most importantly “Wake up today knowing that whatever happens, you can handle it”.