This quote has been a much-needed constant reminder these days. I know there are good things coming, I only need to be brave enough to wait out the storm. The storm is a pretty good way to describe how I have been feeling every morning lately. Believe me, I have wanted to say “nope, not today” so many times recently but I pick myself up, dust myself off and forge ahead. I am a wife. I am a mother. I am a friend. I am a daughter. I am a sister. I am an aunt.
I will strive to have those things define me first, before the “I am a person living with Multiple Sclerosis”. But that definition takes on a different shape in certain points in life. I understand that it will, we allow things to define certain points in our life whether that is our intention or not. It’s finding the good in what may seem like a dead end.
Last time I wrote I was feeling optimistic about a treatment change to an infusion every six months, Ocrevus. While I choose to remain optimistic, it has not been a seamless transition as I had hoped. Why did I hope for that? Because I am a positive person who made a conscious effort to put my energy into the things that can go right, rather than what might not. So, I patiently (kind of) wait…
It’s interesting to think about the last treatment I was on, I was doing as well as I could expect. Or so I thought anyway, but my brain had a different plan. The possibilities with this new infusion treatment and the possible long-term advantages far outweigh the fear of shaking things up a little. What have I got to lose, right?
So, today, I choose to be a happy, forward thinking and positively doing my best to put one foot in front of the other. Some days that’s all I can do, and that’s enough for me!